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LOL i not emo!!!thanks to lam!!!

2007-04-24T04:05:00.000-07:00

hahaha lam keep telling i am not emo.SO i guess not due to the fact i keep on LAUGHING AT RUDI body obour hahaha

today was ok.made banana cake with choco chip.put extra choco at a special piece.it was meant for her obviously...haha.teacher was in quite a mood.so never scold me finally!!!!.after f&n,was math but made a detour to heritage room to see alycia.alone in the dark sia...but at got one light switch on.so yah...then went into mr jamila's room and i took out my cake,ask alycia eat...she eat it.then i felt so HAPPY leh...don't know why.must because she eating something i cooked mah.

after history,went to the the room again...alycia discuss with me what my mum say her...so disappointed LOH!!she trust my mum more than me.she only know for 2 months+ but she trust her so much!!!my mind keep spinning and i getting vey emo...(but i am not emo freak)but she did know and contiuned to say and rattle on about she does not want to force me.i tell her she never....the bell went off and then she took a cab home...wanted to sent her home but i went back to stairs and start reflect what i say and what she say...that's for school life..

i will wait for you
until the day you leave,
i will always bear in mind.
that i have you at my side.
together with me.
we will get through all...

smile for camara??

2007-04-21T01:16:00.000-07:00

hello all :)..these days forget to blog...my bad...lazy sia hahaha.

hmm...let talk about this week.quite fun hahaha basketball training keep playing match,very funny and tiring leh,but still can handle.slack at school at three alt days(monday,wednesday and friday)last time i was accompany by boonkeong but now he now his gf :D haha happy for him sia...must jiayou!!!hahaha.as for me,hmm...also must jiayou and make her happy and contented.
homework a bit too much and difficult and somemore mid-year coming...planing on monday revising my work and pass mid-year with all 70+(but 60 also can lah...simple simple)

my birthday was so FUN!!!i am SO HAPPY!!!all the people who was in it,thanks...including my mum...she gave me a present that makes me so happy and emotional but i keep acting cool in front of them except esther,she know i very happy hahaha

happy birthday senghai hahaha

xiaomianyang is always here...

"calling all cars we got another victim...cause my love has become a...."

2007-04-09T05:05:00.000-07:00

this is a warning to that punk...stop it...i swear to god if i find who the fuck are you...you can be the next zhi guang...yes,i know you know him fucking asshole...i know your mother must hairless and bald to not teach you not to mess with me when i am pissed...

let's detach my emotion of hate and anger for a moment to write my blog properly...

OK...done...

today was ok...though esther like not very happy to see me...i think she sick or something,eyes a bit watery...must be flu...haha.take care esther (: today suppose to get a easter egg from maeve, but she crushed it...arrrgggghh...my decoration...waaa!!hahaha nvm...always got next year...must make maeve promise to make one for me next year hahaha

basketball so fun sia...every day shoot shoot here...shoot shoot there...haha.lots of thanks to boon keong and jin leong,pros that taught me everything i know.hahaha...(i am so modest)

today wanted to go "happy town" but got tuition sian...after that maeve and alicia tell me the most disgusting news...if you are blog surfer ...please go around and check.you will understand if you are in my shoe.

yo indian man whose is a malay and act like a nigga...i am not racist...it is just that the sight of you make me PUKE!!!you think your fats are muscles??please...even mr tay got muscle bigger than your hairy ass.

"don't you know who i think i am????"

2007-03-28T06:16:00.000-07:00

fcuk the councilors man you all S-U-C-K!!!!spell it out ten times and say my name!!!_l_ (except for:jing wen,saiful,saiful's girlfriend[sorry dont know how to spell],nicholas and ernest

today i was like so nervous....talking to my mum for the first without any help from alycia...but later part was what made me become so sad,will talk about later on.

yesterday watch mr bean with myself,alycia and my mum...hoping to prove to myself that i still love my mum as i was when i am young and bald.in the end..."pop goes the weasel"

then today went to clark quay to say sorry to my mum.my idea...just call alycia pei as i need encouragement from the girl i trust and .... most.(shy sia if anyone see this...)

everything went well until 5.30pm.

so sad...i humji sia...if not she will be so happy and glad that i do so much within a day...i really want her to feel this way about me for once...i always disappoint her with my attitude and cold-heartness...is not i cold hearted...is that i don't know how to express in a way that suit me well.hope she understand me...praying hard as i not suitable for her as a friend or even stead.so sad...this is the last time you will see me humji and scared...i will never ever show you my weak side anymore!!!i am sorry...

my bad...please forgive me.

my friends:lam(thank for being there for me),damien(thanks for your support) and alicia(thanks for keeping me amused) and alycia...you will know...

thanks my friends for being me and withstand my jokes and stupidity...

heartbroken

2007-03-19T05:01:00.000-07:00

how do you like your betrayal??slash on the chest or stab on the back?(not concerning today's topic.found it on a newsletter...)

so sad...really...no joke..today was actually the best day for me as it seemed...but end up me crying in the taxi...thoughts filled my brain within one second.i getting really emo...

don't get me wrong.i am not mad.just sad that i know the matter after so long..really upset me deeply...my fears turn reality,but kinda happy as it make her happy.i feel i quite useless...sorry not quite...VERY useless.read me like a book but read you like a log...

depression??dont think so...deprieved??maybe...i am drifting from my friends...they don't really care whether i exist...i want to slash myself(emo!!wooo)...so fun...everyone is doing it.

"the emo package"

lost your happiness

lost your humor

lost your loved one...

some news are old so don't anyhow spread ok??

holiday fever...

2007-03-16T20:25:00.000-07:00

sigh...so sad,holidays are nearly over le.never ask her out,so sian.

march holidays are the worse holidays ever.1 week nia.SO FUCKING FUCK...so piss lor.holiday homework is like still 1 meter tall.sian.somemore,during the 5 weekdays father dont allow me to go out as he is still angry about me spent a hundred dollars in a week.don't blame him as i am shock too...

my friends hate me i think cause i always so guai kia.won't blame them too.it is kinda true.KINDA!!!55% guai only...but only when i emo then it turns 0%.then everyone must start avoiding me...otherwise they will sure get hurt.

she say i got attitude problem...kinda hurt me bad...she is the 3rd person who say that...

anti-social...

love

2007-03-12T23:15:00.000-07:00

sigh...these day,she online i not online...a bit sian leh.she like avoiding me sia.am i that detestful??so angry with myself

dad is scolding me for spenting so much money.a bit true though...haha.i miss school sia.can play a fool,make fun of zhi guang,see my friends prank someone and see her(obviously...)so sian holidays come dont know what to write leh...let take survey...

FOOD:

~you like fish?
:yah
~if yes,what kind??
:those oily and smell nice one...
~choose:beef or mutton
:mutton
~choose:apple or orange
:orange(but i love grapes or lemons)
~are you a sucker for sweet things??
:no
~are you addicted to any snacks??
:anything that has the word"chocolate"
~do you hate vegatable??
:yah
~what is your fav vegatable?
:i just said i hate vegatable...

hahaha so funny so boliao...oh just up tagboard hahaha

you...

2007-03-09T02:25:00.001-08:00

so bored leh...

aiyo holidays leh...so fast...it only seems like yesterday i like her.lol what am i saying.she been very quiet.dont know whether she hates me or pretend i don't exists.dont blame her,must have frightened her badly or something.wei xiang this kind of girl not suitable for me...am i suppose take the advise??or believe in a fool's hunt??this is sad...and you know what??i go write something like a poem but never give her.

school sux!!!mr tung is staring at me hard...cried twice this week and i swear to god i will not cry anymore...so fuck to cry and let people see.i don't want their pity.i just want to feel...sad once a while to tell me that i am alive(so chim??)i getting very emo...i got those "feeling" example:want to kill people when they piss you off lightly,feel like jumping off a building to feel what it's like...
funny right??hahaha.report slip got back and i swear my dad is going blow his top.if not who ever reading this,ask me for one free drink hahaha.

bloody hell...got problem playing gameboy??i play gameboy sp with pokemon game...

you...

2007-03-06T04:44:00.000-08:00

i love her alot...

the sight of her make me happy...strange isnt it??but she does not know...but y'all know what is weirder??i dont even know her that well!!see??weird right??sigh lor...holidays coming,want to jio her go out but i guess...haha

life is coming and going...so emo right>?haha.

credits:jerald(ty for fixing my bloggy)

dearest emotion pls leave me alone...

2007-03-01T03:40:00.001-08:00

wish that sometime my emotions would leave and come back when i am dead...

feeling emo these days...must be hearing too much emo songs like mcr and goodnight nurse but telling the truth i like it,alot.i love being in the rain with the thoughts of her while thinking of mr tung(male-whore) and mr tan(...) dead in the grave i dug for them.i want to get rid of councilors and swear to god if they ever piss me off when i did nothing wrong...i have say sorry to anyone who get in my way of killing time.

my friends are leaving me alone...perphap is because my immaturity was too much...dont blame them though.my friends are not sharp.during sec 1 when mr latiff say"senghai are you deprived of childhood?" cause i was playing with the glue(it was fun),everyone laugh...i did not.it was the utimate truth of me...nobody actually understand i live through my childhood...everyday in fear of your father caning your backside and the blood that spills from my arm...got scolding even it is not your fault,got beaten even if you are innocent.my mind because a nightmare where fear is water and despair is light.as child,my fav game was pretend...pretend this,pretend that...so cool.no one ever see me cry until today...so...fucked up??

it is you that make me happy when i am sad...even if you are a distance away...

...

2007-02-16T03:36:00.000-08:00

valentine day just over but to me everyday seeing you is like starting valentine all over...

yeah~~!!the plan for valentine was a complete success.damien indierctly pass my present to her...then i quickly go settle the chocolate...the list

~first
tell damien to send present(toy)to her personally if no choice her friend.in return i send his present to joey (: (toy)

~second
settle the chocolate flower? thing asap to get it deliver by one of the 4e2 students to her.

~third(unexpected)
give cookie to her personally (:

~forth
say happy valentine day to her lolx

she say "thanks"...i feel like so happy lor.she like so happy i think haha simple-minded boy=me.i bought her toy turtle as the toy.cute sia(lolx.note to self:anderson senghai is a BOY!!!).this valentine is like so nice and heart-warming even though all i get is thanks and a text sms saying thank you.dont expect much though cause is i like her not the other way.hahaha.then today i heard jing wen say she got fever leh..i so worried leh.hahaha like old nanny worry this and that.hahaha

these my friends are giving me the treatment that kenze experience last year.the "bloody,fucking(Sorry for the use of that word..)idiotic FLIRT!!!" treatment.wei xiang ask what wrong,i told him the first reason only...second was i cannot stand them say me flirt,i will cry kinda pathetic and sad.those wondering why...simple,how do like it if people calling you what you hated most and the person related to you is a flirt??HOW DO YOU FEEL!!!!TELL ME!!!HOW!!!!!!!!!i getting sick and tired of people looking at me with those eyes,telling me:"we disrespect you as you are a fucking cb flirt..."kpkb sorry arh...happy already??i know i may lost 'control' if that what you call but please understand,girls talk about some things boys think it is gay or stupid...i not gay that is sure until cannot be sure.but take a look around,you notice girls sometime make us(boys) happy and laugh as they do and say stupid things.i know it apply to all boys but trust me,girls really are...good remedy for stress but then if you like a girl...you have to try to control...like me...

liking a girl is not as simple.it maybe just like what i say above but it is more.all i can is picture it will be...

i miss you so much even though i know you are in my heart and mind...

dots

2007-02-05T04:06:00.000-08:00

dot dash dot(s.o.s) hahahaha

so bored AGAIN??!!haha oh well these weeks are funny,exciting and dumb.these days a virus is spreading...it called"i miss camp and wanna go back" virus 24-7.i miss absailing,sleeping in bunks and the cold water(joking sia).so fun so see sec 1 struggling with things they nver encounter before...it kinda give me those happy feeling to see them complete the course without much effort...so happy

school these days are...so complicated friends are turning to things i fear most...actually to want to let my sec 1 junoir to meet my friends then turn ugly...cause i forget(this is the part where i regreted) it was lam's brithday!!!lam did not mind but i know in every of my friends' hearts they detest me and my sec 1 juniors cause it was a most exciting event for this month for me and my friends...so sad.i feel i done the most wrong...

aiyo stop the rumors please!!!i dont like jing wen you all are sick or something??

yeah!!i talk to her...so happy..she always make me happy even though she did not tell a joke or something.my heart will like...hahaha so childish

homework are piling so sick!!!bleahxx~~!!so disgusting

sigh.cannot think of a poem leh..valentine day coming!!!wooo

...

2007-01-24T04:26:00.000-08:00

na bei,you think you got tough friendsi scared??think again little boy cause you going get burned bad if you play with me...

sigh...so bored everytime i see her,she like 不理我 like that...so sad.kinda sad sia,wish she could at least say"hi" or "hello" haha kinda immature to think like that...eileen say since poeple dont want to get into relationships,then i can an lian her from far.haha so funny

my friends are pissing me off damn often...WW3 is coming man.i know,i can feel it lol.my side,only have one guy but other side...is so retardly strong.it is not fair!!!why always i lose one!!!bloody hell,that's it lah.seng hai just turn bad.from tomorrow onwards,i will not disturb anyone that will take revenge until damn bloody too much.this,i can swear.ducky,you wait...i will strike back one,you and your "height disadvantage" boy...oh,wait forgot,you are shorter than him!!!hahahaha.pls fcuk off and smell your leghair,hairy...

hw are piling!!!waaa!!!so sian.wish i got a life haha.today i staying up late and finish up the rest of hw.haha

she sad=i sad
she happy=i happy
you die=i dancing
you sad=i laughing

you know who you are and i am sure you know what happens i am i very pissed off..i died,yes but i make sure you died more...

black and white??

2007-01-23T03:06:00.001-08:00

sigh...so bored...

hmm...where to start??ok start with classroom

i getting quite restless these days.so sian,wish i could die sia...

i begining to hate my friends,the "table banger" and "disabled for length".they suck man!!!i wish esther was back to tell me things that matters most in my life and make me feel both sad and happy at the same time because what she said is the truth.

next,cca...busy timetable sia...hate it but like what my friend asri say,"hate it or love it,otherwise go away.." lol.but can teach sec 1s leh,not bad (: .haha

next you should know lah.haha today saw her...wait i everyday see her.so happy i finally say hi!not planning to stead her though cause...i scared i break her heart but then,she also say she will not stead cause she is busy.oh well..,

next home affairs...

i bought a nano!!!wooo!!!so cool haha can play games and stuff..haha i write so little sia...

oh well i will stop here.byes

lol

2007-01-12T01:25:00.000-08:00

so bored...lets copy stefanie and take a survey!!!hahaha

Q:are a boy or girl
A:boy

Q:what is your fav snack??
A:chocolate and seaweed(kinda gay but no joke it is nice)

Q:what is your real name
A:goh senghai

Q:what is your fav sport??
A:basketball and cycling

Q:who is your best friend??if boy,best buddy
A:ahmad saiful bin saadon

Q:who is your worst friend??if boy,gayest buddy
A:kenze tan wei wei a.k.a kiang motor

Q:what is your worst fear
A:dentist and ghost that have long teeth

Q:who do you like now??
A:...

Q:if you never REALLY answer the last question,why??
A:never talk to her at ALL

Q:what is your motto
A:boredom is not the way to live but the way i play.(you won't get it)

Q:which of these will choose to eat if you are straving and only these are left.cockroach,worm or snails
A:worms(puke...)

Q:what is your dislike for food??
A:prawns and crabs

that all folks!!muhahahaha

rock on y'all

sorry all >.<

2007-01-11T02:42:00.000-08:00

sorry these days or months i forget to blog....busy busy weeks

i will say what is important then...

-school(lessons)
it sux!!!!!all the bloody way man...so bored!!might as well call it the "bored andersen to death" sec school...grrr...but got some good teachers like mr lim roger and miss cheng :) so happy.the bad news is the stupid mrs cashchew made the whole class signed contact.WTF!!what do i look like??Some gullible shit came out from imf...but nver mind i bear with a stupid craps...

-schools(cca)
i want to sleep and puke at the same time...not cause it is bored.it is because i so tired and my members are so moronic(dont even know that a word)...1 sec will joining us though so should be fun muhahahaha

-school(others)
oh...i saw this girl...quite cute >.all i can say is that the girl is sec 2 and the name starts with a "j"...lolx but not sure wanna to be friend with her or even ask her for stead.and besides,i got problems at my hand that sometime not even my aunt can help me by advising.sian!!!!

-my outside school life
hmm...not many things.i got some new friends like eileen,izyan and jason.lolx quite cute and dumb people but friends are your tools to survive in this greendumbass place....

time keeps moving on and on...

will you change??

will you stay??

most important...

will you ever see me in your mind as a friend??

death note...

2006-12-26T04:41:00.000-08:00

not tomorrow,not next week but now...

yesterday watch "death note 2:the last name"woooooo...hahaha happy.it rock so much.8/10 man...today feel like going to arcade and my "san guo" muhaha.anyway today spent $12.got feeling i overspent le lol.these day got a splitting headache,must be sleeping too late everyday.the lego my dumb mum bought was fun cause i stay up until 1 in the morning.so fun sia.haha,i still so immature.oh well...difference people with difference characteratics.today surf the net to find dawn yeoh pictures haha i am a small fan of her.she so cute hahaha

cute right??shocking thing is that she used to have long hair.sad to said it wasn't nice at all.that all le.byebye people

2006-12-23T20:12:00.000-08:00

christmas eve...

BORED!!!!actually suppose to go out one with eileen but everyone busy...haha.kinda suck.so bored seeing everyone with their families...wish i could go out sia.my christmas present so far rock.got $150 dollar :)...so actually feel like go out and spent all to make me feel more "not bored".i want to call her but i think she is busy so yah.(wonder is she still ok)but even she go out,it with be only two of us,sure will be very,not very...nice??.these days i want to go out SO BADLY as it is so freaking boring me to hell.arhh!!!!please kill time with your nagging...

so sian

schoo holidays are over.

movie nite

2006-12-20T22:17:00.000-08:00

christmas coming...what do you wish for,girl...

woo yesterday watch 'Night at the museum' with eeping,wei wei,wei xiang and chun kiat.i will give a 6/10 cause it not funny but nice to watch if you have time to kill.anyway,chun kiat gave each one of us a christmas present.unlucky me...got a pink bicycle keychain,eeping got a difference colour(can't remember what colour he got) and kenze got a bra set??(chun kiat don't want to say what he gave kenze).then after the movie,went to fool around in shops haha.after fooling around,went to c-square play arcade...play until late for dinner.then in the end my bloody maid nver cook,lazy lol.oh well,partly my fault for not telling her to cook for me...that should be it...

plus 44 album is out!!!please let be my christmas present >.<

amdersensenghai

the revenge of the six foot tall ass-hole,kenze

first post

2006-12-18T22:30:00.000-08:00

first of all thanks to ji phang for helping...

lol...first post...dont know write what...today raining the whole day.cannot go out and cycle.yesterday sick until so bad cannot go out...so today must pay back (:.ask doctor why my nose bleed,he say "you nver drink plenty of liquid.that why nose bleed.young man,take my advise and drink water but don't take honey or other sweet drinks.it will make your cough worse"... i did not reply cause that obviously shut me up.then take taxi go home even though it is a short distance from loyang point to drive 4.upon reaching home,my dad told not to drink the second bottle of cough syrup as that is for when some else whem he or she is sick...typical singaporean...kaisu king sia...then after bathing,play my gameboy until 10.30pm,then MR GOH angry face stare at me...the reason is too obvious,never rest.so went to sleep at 11pm.yup that about it...

yawn...